The infamous 90 second goodbye is fast approaching and I am not ready. How could I let my boy go? I am so proud of him and his decision to enter West Point; however, as the days draw nearer my hearts is breaking.
Last year, had you asked what I wanted for our future, I would have said I wanted everything to stay the same. I wanted to hold on to my son tightly and never let him go. This year I know there is something better than holding on tight. Letting go will be an incredible experience. I will have the privilege of witnessing his oath to become a West Point Cadet. I will be continuously searching online for pictures hoping to see a glimpse of his face, waiting for letters, laughing at his humor, and worrying when he is down. These next few years will certainly change the direction of his life. The thought of days, weeks, and even months without him makes my heart stop. From a distance, I will watch him grow into one of our country’s finest military leaders and I will love him even more.
Yes, very soon I will need to let go but only physically. Emotionally I will still hold him in my heart and think about him every day. I wonder where he will go, who he will become and how he will surprise me next. This will be an incredible year. Today, as I wipe the tears away I know in just a few weeks I will begin the West Point and Army Mom journey, waiting for the doors to open, knowing I only have 90 seconds to say goodbye to my Joshua.
Last year, had you asked what I wanted for our future, I would have said I wanted everything to stay the same. I wanted to hold on to my son tightly and never let him go. This year I know there is something better than holding on tight. Letting go will be an incredible experience. I will have the privilege of witnessing his oath to become a West Point Cadet. I will be continuously searching online for pictures hoping to see a glimpse of his face, waiting for letters, laughing at his humor, and worrying when he is down. These next few years will certainly change the direction of his life. The thought of days, weeks, and even months without him makes my heart stop. From a distance, I will watch him grow into one of our country’s finest military leaders and I will love him even more.
Yes, very soon I will need to let go but only physically. Emotionally I will still hold him in my heart and think about him every day. I wonder where he will go, who he will become and how he will surprise me next. This will be an incredible year. Today, as I wipe the tears away I know in just a few weeks I will begin the West Point and Army Mom journey, waiting for the doors to open, knowing I only have 90 seconds to say goodbye to my Joshua.